college life is not as easy as i thought i was, it's much more harder. i thought people in college, all they do is have fun, well, i was wrong. people in there is not easy too. the one thing i learn about college, dont trust anyone but yourself. what my friend said was right, what im facing now is not yet the hard part. its gonna be worst when im out to the world all alone after studying. after looking at my final exam's results, it was fucked up. i screwed up! but im not gonna give up :) i'll try harder this term. i promised my bestfriends i'll study hard and we'll go to the same uni, lol. im doing this not just for them, its also for my parents, and most important, myself.

ohwell, studying is never easy. maybe to some of you it is, but to someone like me, who hates book, gosh! book is my worst enemy. hahaha! like what my dear boyfie said, love your enemy! lol. imma learn how to love studying now. hehe. since im planning to shift to amanda's class, im gonna be surrounded by people, lol. not just people, smart people. im gonna feel like shit there. anyways, its also for amanda, i changed to that class, and the both of us know why ;)

ahh, i dont know how to ever face my parents, i let them down. its only the first semester and i did so bad. i really hope i can cope up with 6 freaking subjects this term, since i have to retake malaysianstudies and also accounts, the two fked up subjects i hate most! DAMN! fuck fuck fuck my life ._.

and my new timetable is killing me, my time n boyfie's time is totally different :( i dont really get to see him. yeah maybe a while, but hehe its never enough. hope the class im changing to, our time will be, idk? better? haha.

i miss my lipgloss! when can we ever spend time like how we use to?! i cant wait till jiayin comes back from uk :( sigh. we've always been there for each other. lol, we never fail to pick up each other's call! especially mid night HAHA. times we spend together in highschool is unforgettable, sweet memories. and its gonna go on like we said it will. forever and always.

anyways, time to off!
loves.

xx