had dinner with mommy, janice, me baby and amanda my darling :)
dinner was, good? but not as good as the really good time amanda and i had at skybar LOL
skybar was awesome. havent felt that way for a very long time.
we so have to go there again, this time without mommy and ma sister :P

ohwell, blog not private, so not gonna say anything lololol.

adios! hahahahahaha!

love u peeps!

i miss us

the times we had together. i'll always cherish it. 

i love you both <3

my sisters from another mother lol!

hands on me.

I first saw you at the video exchange
I know my heart and it will never change
This temp work would be alright if you'd call me
You'd call me
I lay awake at night for you
And I pray

We'd cross the deepest oceans
Cargo across the sea
And if you don't believe me
Just put your hands on me
And all the constellations
Shine down for us to see
And if you don't believe me
Just put your hands on me

The subway radiates with heat
We've barely met and still I cross the street to your door

We'd cross the deepest oceans
Cargo across the sea
And if you don't believe me
Just put your hands on me
And all the constellations
Shine down for us to see
And if you don't believe me
Just put your hands on me

Someday when our stories are told
They'll tell of a love like this
When our descendents are all growing old
1,000 years they'll be singing

We'll climb Tibetan mountains
Where we can barely breathe
I'll see the Dali Lama
I'll feel him blessing me
And all the constellations
Shine down for us to see
And if you don't believe me
Just put your hands on me
Your hands on me

you are the one i wanna talk to every night, the one person i think of every morning when i wake up, the one i wanna send good morning to every single morning. and the one i wanna love. i never regret every single time i say 'i love you' to you. its the one thing i will never fail to tell you everyday, not to impress you, but to remind you how much i love you :) and if i ever made you mad, i wanna say im sorry, and i will TRY not to do it again, cause baby whenever i make u mad, its the last thing i would ever wanna do. and i'll make it up to you ;) *winkwink*  LOL

i love you baby, till death do us apart.

1month18days and still counting <3

x

ever since what happened, you totally change. it's like a whole new person im seeing everyday.
stuff you say, things you do. i really wish i could help you, but no matter what i do, it's all about you.
if u dont have faith in yourself, its not gonna change anything. if only you can stop complaining and actually do something to make the situation better :(

the both of you are the only thing i have, no one can ever replace you.

you think im fine with all this? im not. waking up everyday thinking about the same thing. wondering when is it gonna end. i just wish we can start all over again, i know it is hard to forgive and forget, ohwell, we have to.


and to my dear boyfriend,
you are the one i love most, you are the one i want to stay with forever. i know,to you, forever doesnt exist. den let me show you what forever is. i'll prove you wrong. since the day we got together, thats when the book of my life lit up. flip through every single page, ure there :) and i want this to go on. i want you to be in every single chapter of my life. and baby, i'll always be there for you. through all your ups and downs. no matter how bad things will end up. i'll be there. every single thing i do now, its all about us. ure my other half :) you complete me. without you im lost. i love you baby!!!! <3 mwahs!!!!

x

this week isnt a good one for me, too many things happened. 
things that i never expect to happen, happened. 
people i thought that will never be in this shit, oh well, they are.
there is so many things in my head. so many questions that will never be answered.
why are you doing this to me? you are the one i trusted, the one i look up to.
now, im confused. i don't know how to face you. how am i suppose to talk to you.
i wish i could turn back time and stop all this shit from happening.
you broke my heart, not only mine, but ours.
i don't know how could i ever trust you again. 


for now, i don't wanna be involved. i just want to spend time alone.
away from all this, with him. 
i just hope all this will go away real soon.

now that she's gone, i hope things will be better.