i miss us

the times we had together. i'll always cherish it. 

i love you both <3

my sisters from another mother lol!

hands on me.

I first saw you at the video exchange
I know my heart and it will never change
This temp work would be alright if you'd call me
You'd call me
I lay awake at night for you
And I pray

We'd cross the deepest oceans
Cargo across the sea
And if you don't believe me
Just put your hands on me
And all the constellations
Shine down for us to see
And if you don't believe me
Just put your hands on me

The subway radiates with heat
We've barely met and still I cross the street to your door

We'd cross the deepest oceans
Cargo across the sea
And if you don't believe me
Just put your hands on me
And all the constellations
Shine down for us to see
And if you don't believe me
Just put your hands on me

Someday when our stories are told
They'll tell of a love like this
When our descendents are all growing old
1,000 years they'll be singing

We'll climb Tibetan mountains
Where we can barely breathe
I'll see the Dali Lama
I'll feel him blessing me
And all the constellations
Shine down for us to see
And if you don't believe me
Just put your hands on me
Your hands on me

you are the one i wanna talk to every night, the one person i think of every morning when i wake up, the one i wanna send good morning to every single morning. and the one i wanna love. i never regret every single time i say 'i love you' to you. its the one thing i will never fail to tell you everyday, not to impress you, but to remind you how much i love you :) and if i ever made you mad, i wanna say im sorry, and i will TRY not to do it again, cause baby whenever i make u mad, its the last thing i would ever wanna do. and i'll make it up to you ;) *winkwink*  LOL

i love you baby, till death do us apart.

1month18days and still counting <3

x

ever since what happened, you totally change. it's like a whole new person im seeing everyday.
stuff you say, things you do. i really wish i could help you, but no matter what i do, it's all about you.
if u dont have faith in yourself, its not gonna change anything. if only you can stop complaining and actually do something to make the situation better :(

the both of you are the only thing i have, no one can ever replace you.

you think im fine with all this? im not. waking up everyday thinking about the same thing. wondering when is it gonna end. i just wish we can start all over again, i know it is hard to forgive and forget, ohwell, we have to.


and to my dear boyfriend,
you are the one i love most, you are the one i want to stay with forever. i know,to you, forever doesnt exist. den let me show you what forever is. i'll prove you wrong. since the day we got together, thats when the book of my life lit up. flip through every single page, ure there :) and i want this to go on. i want you to be in every single chapter of my life. and baby, i'll always be there for you. through all your ups and downs. no matter how bad things will end up. i'll be there. every single thing i do now, its all about us. ure my other half :) you complete me. without you im lost. i love you baby!!!! <3 mwahs!!!!

x

this week isnt a good one for me, too many things happened. 
things that i never expect to happen, happened. 
people i thought that will never be in this shit, oh well, they are.
there is so many things in my head. so many questions that will never be answered.
why are you doing this to me? you are the one i trusted, the one i look up to.
now, im confused. i don't know how to face you. how am i suppose to talk to you.
i wish i could turn back time and stop all this shit from happening.
you broke my heart, not only mine, but ours.
i don't know how could i ever trust you again. 


for now, i don't wanna be involved. i just want to spend time alone.
away from all this, with him. 
i just hope all this will go away real soon.

now that she's gone, i hope things will be better. 

ure the one.

I was riding shotgun with my hair undone in the front seat of his car
He's got a one-hand feel on the steering wheel
The other on my heart
I look around, turn the radio down
He says baby is something wrong?
I say nothing I was just thinking how we don't have a song
And he says...

Our song is a slamming screen door,
Sneakin' out late, tapping on your window
When we're on the phone and you talk real slow
Cause it's late and your mama don't know
Our song is the way you laugh
The first date "Man I didn't kiss her, and I should have"
And when I got home ... 'fore I said amen
Asking God if he could play it again

I was walking up the front porch steps after everything that day
Had gone all wrong and been trampled on
And lost and thrown away
Got to the hallway, well on my way to my lovin' bed
I almost didn't notice all the roses
And the note that said...

I've heard every album, listened to the radio
Waited for something to come along
That was as good as our song...

Cause our song is a slamming screen door
Sneaking out late, tapping on his window
When we're on the phone and he talks real slow
Cause it's late and his mama don't know
Our song is the way he laughs
The first date "man, I didn't kiss him, and I should have"
And when I got home, 'fore I said amen
Asking God if he could play it again

I was riding shotgun with my hair undone
In the front seat of his car
I grabbed a pen and an old napkin
And I... wrote down our song

teacup yorkshire terrier !! ure gonna be mine soon haha idc! :p

tomorrow is gonna be a busy day! mom's having open hse .__.

and i have to help out. dammit! haha

anyways, look at the bright side :D more angpaus to collect ( i hope ) 

hahahaha! im broke, so i need more $$$$$$ 

WOOOTS!

toodless for now! going to my aunt's open house :D

LOVES! <3

fuck u! ergh!! what did i do for u?!
a lot u bitch!! im always doing everything. my sister?! she can go fk herself for all i care!
ure always on her side, who is on my side?! no one!

i love you. but sometimes, i really cant read whats in that mind of urs.
i just dont want the same mistakes to happen again. 
this might sound silly, but i wanna spend all my life with u.
when i see u, i see my future. baby, you're the one for me.
i need somebody who loves me, and i know you wont break my heart.
and we will never part. 

Lately, I've been tryna fight whatever's pulling us under
it's got a hold and really making me wonder
what it takes to get through
I gotta stick with you, my baby 

Baby tell me
Maybe I'm foolishly overreacting
But being without you I can't imagine
It's just to close to the heart and
And I won't stand it if were broken apart 

Do you hear me?
Baby ya gotta believe in the things that make you and me win together
Don't you throw in the towel
I'm keeping my promise to you I got ya back now
When the chips are down
It seems like it's so hard for you to move ahead
Just know that I am by your side
There aint no ifs, buts, or maybes,
I'm gonna stay down and ride for you baby

We've been cutting it close with the backwards and forwards
It's rocking the boat; we gotta get control of this
Let's take it back to three years ago
When you said that we could make it through whatever, ever
And to me it sounded like you meant forever, ever

Leaving was not an option, baby, never, never

Now don't you believe in a love that's worth a fight

In you is everything that I'm missing
So give us a chance

Don't you dare tell me we gotta let it go...
We been on top for too long just to let it go under
I don't wanna hear that
I just can't hear that
and know
Wherever you wanna take me
I'll go
I been with you for too long to start over with another
I know that you hear me
Just tell me you hear me

having you in my life is a right thing to do. no regrets. ups and downs, we'll go through it together.
you're my baby love. 

i love you baby :)

three words. eight letters. and i'm all yours  <3

college is fun! dayuumm!! lol
but assignments and homeworks are killing me!
ergh. some people think college life is fun
hahahahaha i dont think so. its kind of complicated
well, my parents are the very over-protective type.
i cant go clubbing. i cant always go out :(
USED TO IT! haha but still! come on, im a college girl.

but, haha mum dont question me a lot anymore.
like who am i on the phone with and all. haha
what she ask is. any hot guy in school?
HAHA love her! <3

anyways! gtg, will continue some other time! LOVES

Seems like college life is not that fun after all. everyone is moving on, to their own path for their career. Jia yin left to uk :( now its only Syanas and i. but no worries Jiayin. after i finish my Foundations and Syanas with her A levels. We're gonna meet again at uk :D I'll try to go in to Cardiff. that depends on my results, i hope i pass my freakin foundations.

Jiayin n Syanas,
You both mean the world to me. nothing else in this world can replace the both of you. i love u bitches! and this is not the end, we still have long long way to go. our friendship is like a pathway, a pathway which will never end.

fuck you!

all of you.