The most important thing a father can do for his children is to love their mother.

its all your fault, if its not because of you, nothing like this would happen.
dont make me start doing something to you. i dont want to.
cause once i start i'll never stop. you think i wont? try me.
i'll never let you go, and that i mean it. i'll remember you for the fkin rest of my life!
i'll NEVER forgive you. never!

becareful lil bitch, i'll come hunting :)

love me, that's all i ask of you.
remembering the first time i saw you.
it'll always make me happy.
forgive me if i did something wrong.

i love you.

college life is not as easy as i thought i was, it's much more harder. i thought people in college, all they do is have fun, well, i was wrong. people in there is not easy too. the one thing i learn about college, dont trust anyone but yourself. what my friend said was right, what im facing now is not yet the hard part. its gonna be worst when im out to the world all alone after studying. after looking at my final exam's results, it was fucked up. i screwed up! but im not gonna give up :) i'll try harder this term. i promised my bestfriends i'll study hard and we'll go to the same uni, lol. im doing this not just for them, its also for my parents, and most important, myself.

ohwell, studying is never easy. maybe to some of you it is, but to someone like me, who hates book, gosh! book is my worst enemy. hahaha! like what my dear boyfie said, love your enemy! lol. imma learn how to love studying now. hehe. since im planning to shift to amanda's class, im gonna be surrounded by people, lol. not just people, smart people. im gonna feel like shit there. anyways, its also for amanda, i changed to that class, and the both of us know why ;)

ahh, i dont know how to ever face my parents, i let them down. its only the first semester and i did so bad. i really hope i can cope up with 6 freaking subjects this term, since i have to retake malaysianstudies and also accounts, the two fked up subjects i hate most! DAMN! fuck fuck fuck my life ._.

and my new timetable is killing me, my time n boyfie's time is totally different :( i dont really get to see him. yeah maybe a while, but hehe its never enough. hope the class im changing to, our time will be, idk? better? haha.

i miss my lipgloss! when can we ever spend time like how we use to?! i cant wait till jiayin comes back from uk :( sigh. we've always been there for each other. lol, we never fail to pick up each other's call! especially mid night HAHA. times we spend together in highschool is unforgettable, sweet memories. and its gonna go on like we said it will. forever and always.

anyways, time to off!
loves.

xx

when i think about you, it never fail to make me smile.
now all i want is to rewind, and rewrite every line of the story of me and you.
baby im sorry, and i hope what ever is happening now, wouldnt break us apart :/

P.S. i love you.

this is torture, college, you, my parents. wtf?!
i just wish you could try to undersrand me more. try standing in my shoes for once. not so good and comfy afterall. i dont know who else to talk to about all this, no one seems to solve it, but you can. but i dont think you noticed that we're not so close anymore. we dont talk like we used to. and now, after what my friends told me. things just got worst, not for you, but me. there is so many questions i wanna ask. it just wont come out of my fucking mouth. FML.

i miss you, that's all i can say now.

had dinner with mommy, janice, me baby and amanda my darling :)
dinner was, good? but not as good as the really good time amanda and i had at skybar LOL
skybar was awesome. havent felt that way for a very long time.
we so have to go there again, this time without mommy and ma sister :P

ohwell, blog not private, so not gonna say anything lololol.

adios! hahahahahaha!

love u peeps!

i miss us

the times we had together. i'll always cherish it. 

i love you both <3

my sisters from another mother lol!

hands on me.

I first saw you at the video exchange
I know my heart and it will never change
This temp work would be alright if you'd call me
You'd call me
I lay awake at night for you
And I pray

We'd cross the deepest oceans
Cargo across the sea
And if you don't believe me
Just put your hands on me
And all the constellations
Shine down for us to see
And if you don't believe me
Just put your hands on me

The subway radiates with heat
We've barely met and still I cross the street to your door

We'd cross the deepest oceans
Cargo across the sea
And if you don't believe me
Just put your hands on me
And all the constellations
Shine down for us to see
And if you don't believe me
Just put your hands on me

Someday when our stories are told
They'll tell of a love like this
When our descendents are all growing old
1,000 years they'll be singing

We'll climb Tibetan mountains
Where we can barely breathe
I'll see the Dali Lama
I'll feel him blessing me
And all the constellations
Shine down for us to see
And if you don't believe me
Just put your hands on me
Your hands on me

you are the one i wanna talk to every night, the one person i think of every morning when i wake up, the one i wanna send good morning to every single morning. and the one i wanna love. i never regret every single time i say 'i love you' to you. its the one thing i will never fail to tell you everyday, not to impress you, but to remind you how much i love you :) and if i ever made you mad, i wanna say im sorry, and i will TRY not to do it again, cause baby whenever i make u mad, its the last thing i would ever wanna do. and i'll make it up to you ;) *winkwink*  LOL

i love you baby, till death do us apart.

1month18days and still counting <3

x

ever since what happened, you totally change. it's like a whole new person im seeing everyday.
stuff you say, things you do. i really wish i could help you, but no matter what i do, it's all about you.
if u dont have faith in yourself, its not gonna change anything. if only you can stop complaining and actually do something to make the situation better :(

the both of you are the only thing i have, no one can ever replace you.

you think im fine with all this? im not. waking up everyday thinking about the same thing. wondering when is it gonna end. i just wish we can start all over again, i know it is hard to forgive and forget, ohwell, we have to.


and to my dear boyfriend,
you are the one i love most, you are the one i want to stay with forever. i know,to you, forever doesnt exist. den let me show you what forever is. i'll prove you wrong. since the day we got together, thats when the book of my life lit up. flip through every single page, ure there :) and i want this to go on. i want you to be in every single chapter of my life. and baby, i'll always be there for you. through all your ups and downs. no matter how bad things will end up. i'll be there. every single thing i do now, its all about us. ure my other half :) you complete me. without you im lost. i love you baby!!!! <3 mwahs!!!!

x

this week isnt a good one for me, too many things happened. 
things that i never expect to happen, happened. 
people i thought that will never be in this shit, oh well, they are.
there is so many things in my head. so many questions that will never be answered.
why are you doing this to me? you are the one i trusted, the one i look up to.
now, im confused. i don't know how to face you. how am i suppose to talk to you.
i wish i could turn back time and stop all this shit from happening.
you broke my heart, not only mine, but ours.
i don't know how could i ever trust you again. 


for now, i don't wanna be involved. i just want to spend time alone.
away from all this, with him. 
i just hope all this will go away real soon.

now that she's gone, i hope things will be better. 

ure the one.

I was riding shotgun with my hair undone in the front seat of his car
He's got a one-hand feel on the steering wheel
The other on my heart
I look around, turn the radio down
He says baby is something wrong?
I say nothing I was just thinking how we don't have a song
And he says...

Our song is a slamming screen door,
Sneakin' out late, tapping on your window
When we're on the phone and you talk real slow
Cause it's late and your mama don't know
Our song is the way you laugh
The first date "Man I didn't kiss her, and I should have"
And when I got home ... 'fore I said amen
Asking God if he could play it again

I was walking up the front porch steps after everything that day
Had gone all wrong and been trampled on
And lost and thrown away
Got to the hallway, well on my way to my lovin' bed
I almost didn't notice all the roses
And the note that said...

I've heard every album, listened to the radio
Waited for something to come along
That was as good as our song...

Cause our song is a slamming screen door
Sneaking out late, tapping on his window
When we're on the phone and he talks real slow
Cause it's late and his mama don't know
Our song is the way he laughs
The first date "man, I didn't kiss him, and I should have"
And when I got home, 'fore I said amen
Asking God if he could play it again

I was riding shotgun with my hair undone
In the front seat of his car
I grabbed a pen and an old napkin
And I... wrote down our song

teacup yorkshire terrier !! ure gonna be mine soon haha idc! :p